Oh dear. Hope you're feeling a little better now. Hugs from Ireland.
If it's misery loving company, it was my ex's birthday yesterday. First time in 4 years we didn't spend it together. Even though we're not far off a year broken up, and the fact that I know it's for the best, it still feels crappy.
Now that i finally managed to get some sleep, i don't want to wake up. Every moment awake hurts so bad... Someone need to make a painkiller for heartache. (and i really don't want to start drinking...)
@cybette well I am strong in the belief that drinking really doesn't help whatsoever. Perhaps a change of scene? Or perhaps target the heartache with other heartache - rent some classic tear making films like casablanca, curl up with ice cream and a big comfy duvet and let it all out?
@cybette pack your bags amd come home to helsinki. I guess its payback time for me now. I am in the process of moving homes, has shortlisted a place with a piano. come here!
@cybette: I'd invite you to join me in the panic of packing, but my apartment is still a mess and I don't have anything to offer. If you need a hug, I could promise to be huggable around 1700-1900 before leaving the airport :-)
@alexleonard: thanks, it did bring a smile to my face briefly. didn't know the show though. @myrtti: i appreciate that. i'll send you a text later if i feel ok enough to step out of the apartment. @ all - thank you all, really, for your concern and encouragement.
Father Ted is an old Irish comedy show that came out on Channel 4. I've always thought it was an absolute classic, although I am unsure how well it transfers to other cultures - I know one American friend of my parents didn't get it at all.
thank you, you guys are the best. @lemonad sounds like a fun weekend, enjoy! i'm going to copenhagen this weekend... that should do me some good. but i'll visit Stockholm (and Helsinki) again soon!
I've only met him once since the breakup to get some questions answered. And not much other interactions (online) either save for a couple of "how's work", "how's copenhagen" etc.
I've tried hanging out with good friends, hanging out with guys who seems interested for the ego boost, hanging out by myself... nothing seems to work. (Not that I don't appreciate and enjoy all the company... just not helping with the pain of losing him. Then again, maybe I never had him to begin with. That's what sucks. Sigh...)
@cybette: i know that all this virtual hugs arent all that you need, but take the value of our words, and feelings of Friendship, in the hopes it will make you feel better!
Day 30. Has it been a month? Sometimes it seems like it was just yesterday when we were still happy together. Other times I miss him so so much, it feels like I haven't seen him in months/years.
Many thanks again for all your supportive comments.
Day 111. I need to stop doing this... Damn this road to recovery is so tough and long, but finally i think i'm gaining some momentum and speed. Let's hope this is the last comment here in this thread.
Thanks to all who have put up with my whining for the past 3.5 months.
45 comments so far
@cybette: are those your wedding vowels ? :))
4 months, 3 weeks ago by BUGabundo
just the opposite.... see the lyrics of the song for hints...
4 months, 3 weeks ago by cybette
*hugs*
4 months, 3 weeks ago by myrtti
@cybette: what song? humm huggs from @myrtti?
did you and your (former?) boyfriend broke up?
4 months, 3 weeks ago by BUGabundo
the song is i will always love you
4 months, 3 weeks ago by cybette
didn't sleep at all last night. barely had 2 hours of sleep during the day today. didn't eat anything all day. yet i'm not hungry or sleepy. help....
4 months, 3 weeks ago by cybette
Hold on, bunny... hold on...
4 months, 3 weeks ago by map
@cybette: join the club! had 4h of sleep in the last two day. only ate half a bawl of soup. i'm depressed.
4 months, 3 weeks ago by BUGabundo
It's definitely an epidemic. 7.5 months looking unsuccessfully for a job have me bummed. Too bad we can't all get drunk together...
4 months, 3 weeks ago by Texrat
Oh dear. Hope you're feeling a little better now. Hugs from Ireland.
If it's misery loving company, it was my ex's birthday yesterday. First time in 4 years we didn't spend it together. Even though we're not far off a year broken up, and the fact that I know it's for the best, it still feels crappy.
Relationships suck.
4 months, 3 weeks ago by alexleonard
@alexleonard: not all relationships sucks! Ours, on µblogging, dont suck! they just got cut up by 3rd parties
4 months, 3 weeks ago by BUGabundo
@BUGabundo: speak for yourself
4 months, 3 weeks ago by myrtti
@myrtti: i can only speak for my self. everything I say, is based on my POV
4 months, 3 weeks ago by BUGabundo
Now that i finally managed to get some sleep, i don't want to wake up. Every moment awake hurts so bad... Someone need to make a painkiller for heartache. (and i really don't want to start drinking...)
4 months, 3 weeks ago by cybette
@cybette well I am strong in the belief that drinking really doesn't help whatsoever. Perhaps a change of scene? Or perhaps target the heartache with other heartache - rent some classic tear making films like casablanca, curl up with ice cream and a big comfy duvet and let it all out?
4 months, 3 weeks ago by alexleonard
@cybette pack your bags amd come home to helsinki. I guess its payback time for me now. I am in the process of moving homes, has shortlisted a place with a piano. come here!
4 months, 3 weeks ago by Surya
@cybette: I'd invite you to join me in the panic of packing, but my apartment is still a mess and I don't have anything to offer. If you need a hug, I could promise to be huggable around 1700-1900 before leaving the airport :-)
4 months, 3 weeks ago by myrtti
@cybette I've uploaded a short clip which might cheer you up a little:
http://vimeo.com/5150293
Password: cybette
It's from the Irish TV show Father Ted, which you may or may not know.
4 months, 3 weeks ago by alexleonard
@alexleonard: thanks, it did bring a smile to my face briefly. didn't know the show though. @myrtti: i appreciate that. i'll send you a text later if i feel ok enough to step out of the apartment. @ all - thank you all, really, for your concern and encouragement.
4 months, 3 weeks ago by cybette
Glad there was a momentary smile.
Father Ted is an old Irish comedy show that came out on Channel 4. I've always thought it was an absolute classic, although I am unsure how well it transfers to other cultures - I know one American friend of my parents didn't get it at all.
On Amazon: http://www.amazon.co.uk/Father-Ted-Definitive-Collection-DVD/dp/B000UZPM76
On Mininova: http://www.mininova.org/tor/2450574
4 months, 3 weeks ago by alexleonard
Day 10. Wounds show no sign of healing. Sometimes it even feels like they're being stabbed deeper....
4 months, 2 weeks ago by cybette
@cybette: :( Lots of positive thoughts going out from Sweden. Hope you get through it all soon. If there's anything we can do...
Oh, if you're around Stockholm this weekend there's paddling and yellow-blue-tenting in the archipelago in it for you :)
4 months, 2 weeks ago by lemonad
@cybette: hugs girl.. why dont you come over to helsinki for the weekend if free?
4 months, 2 weeks ago by Surya
I don't think I have any words of advice or wisdom that would help, so I'll leave it at this -- :(
4 months, 2 weeks ago by jezlyn
/me send hugs!
4 months, 2 weeks ago by BUGabundo
thank you, you guys are the best. @lemonad sounds like a fun weekend, enjoy! i'm going to copenhagen this weekend... that should do me some good. but i'll visit Stockholm (and Helsinki) again soon!
4 months, 2 weeks ago by cybette
@cybette: Have lots of fun in Copenhagen! Let us know when you're heading for Stockholm :)
4 months, 2 weeks ago by lemonad
@cybette: freak out in Copenhagen :)
4 months, 2 weeks ago by Surya
Day 20. Pokes at wounds. Ouch. Still as fresh as day 1.
4 months, 1 week ago by cybette
are you doing the timeouts? and not talking the taboo topics?
4 months, 1 week ago by Surya
I've only met him once since the breakup to get some questions answered. And not much other interactions (online) either save for a couple of "how's work", "how's copenhagen" etc.
I've tried hanging out with good friends, hanging out with guys who seems interested for the ego boost, hanging out by myself... nothing seems to work. (Not that I don't appreciate and enjoy all the company... just not helping with the pain of losing him. Then again, maybe I never had him to begin with. That's what sucks. Sigh...)
4 months, 1 week ago by cybette
@cybette: aww honey... hugs to you... :-(
4 months, 1 week ago by Surya
@cybette: i know that all this virtual hugs arent all that you need, but take the value of our words, and feelings of Friendship, in the hopes it will make you feel better!
4 months, 1 week ago by BUGabundo
I dreamt the impossible dream and woke up with tears on my pillow...
4 months ago by cybette
@cybette hope you feel better. Another day brings a new beginning. :)
4 months ago by heatwave
Hugs babe!
4 months ago by Surya
Day 30. Has it been a month? Sometimes it seems like it was just yesterday when we were still happy together. Other times I miss him so so much, it feels like I haven't seen him in months/years.
Many thanks again for all your supportive comments.
3 months, 3 weeks ago by cybette
Oh, and here's a poem I wrote for him- http://blog.cybette.com/archives/000436.html (I think the longest one I've ever written)
3 months, 3 weeks ago by cybette
Day 60. The day I stop updating this is the day I've truly found peace and accepted this and won't cry when I read this Jaiku...
2 months, 3 weeks ago by cybette
Oh, bunny! HUGS!
2 months, 3 weeks ago by map
Hugs @cybette!
2 months, 3 weeks ago by lemonad
Day 82. Happy Birthday to J. and happy chinese birthday to me...
2 months ago by cybette
I'm sorry dear Carol Hugs
2 months ago by chelx
Day 111. I need to stop doing this... Damn this road to recovery is so tough and long, but finally i think i'm gaining some momentum and speed. Let's hope this is the last comment here in this thread.
Thanks to all who have put up with my whining for the past 3.5 months.
1 month ago by cybette
well i've more or less stopped counting the days but haven't been able to stop thinking of him... and definitely haven't stopped loving him.
this is going to be a looooonng winter...
1 week, 6 days ago by cybette